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Oh boy oh boy fun times. I have been thinking a lot these days, you know that's always fun. I haven't come to any conclusions but I just figured I would get some of this out so I can process it better.
My whole life has been a search for meaning don't get me wrong I understand the ultimate meaning for my life I wrote about in my last blog and nothing has changed I am made to glorify God no question about it.
I guess what it all comes down to is my understanding of the gifts and abilities the Lord has given me.
We all have them were are blessed with specific gifts and talents. Some of us are more aware of our gifts and talents then others. I have always believed that we're all gifted with creativity and recently I have been reading a book called the Artist Way that has only affirmed what I have known all along were are all creative, some of us just know it better then others.
Though the book is not a biblical book per-say it really hits the fact that we are created by a creator. A creator, that implies that there is creativity involved, which means that being made in his image we are all creative. I hate it when I hear people say that they aren't creative or that someone else is more creative then them. It's as if they are saying the things that God has given them aren't enough. I'm sure this is nothing new to most people but if we are made in His image aren't we then called to portray all of that including being creative.
I think it is time to stop making excuses and start making art. That's right art, now most people are jumping to the conclusions and thinking in their heads, "I don't paint, I have never been good at drawing, this girls crazy to think I can do art" well your right about one thing I am crazy but not about this matter.
Now we all express ourselves in different ways right, well here is the thought process, we can be creative in all the ways we express ourselves. Just because your creative doesn't mean some one will pay for your creativity. I have drawn picture since I was a little kid and to this day no one has paid for them.
I am not talking about creating revenue off of your creativity, I am talking about being your complete self. I know there are several people who seem to need more in their life or feel as though something is missing even though they have Jesus in their lives. To some this mat sound wrong but I think I can understand that feeling all to well. I think some how we have allowed ourselves to believe that if we have Christ in our lives we only need to express him but really we need to express ourself, the person he has and is making us to be. That will in turn express who He is and people will be drawn to him.
I don't know but I tend to think that we feel this void because we aren't being our whole selves. I think in order to be all we were created to be we need to be creating. We need to find ways to express ourselves so God can be seen.
That could mean picking up a paint brush, or a trumpet. Maybe it means getting out an old sewing machine or a sketch paid. Maybe it means writing a journal or cooking an amazing meal. It could even be finding a fun way to go over the annual budget or coming up with a way to teach children something new. It all looks so different yet it is all so beautiful.

I love seeing how God made us such individuals yet we all if walking with him point people to his glory.

Why aren't you creating? What lies are stopping you?
Where should you be creating?
How can you be creating?

Come on people lets stop making excuses and start making Art!

My thoughts for the day...

Others ideas

I just read Jason Mraz's blog post from yesterday. And at first I was taken back by it, I'm not sure why but then it got me to thinkin' we all should be doing that.
His blog consisted of "I love my..." statements there were over 40 things he shared that he loved about himself.
I read through his list and thought wow I've never thought about lovingly spine but I sure do because with out it I would be a blob.
So here's my idea every one post or comment the things you love about yourself and see how you feel after you do it.
Here goes mine;

I love my eyes. I live my hair. I love my smile. I love my beauty mark. I love my toes. I love my teeth. I love my tongue. I love my voice. I love my nose ring. I love my fingers. I love my hands. I love my legs. I love my shape. I love my height 5'6 it's just right. I love my spirit. I love my walk. I love the way I phrase things. I love they way I see things other people can't. I love to grow. I love to paint. I live to learn. I love to walk. I love my style. I love my heart. I love to care. I love to help. I love my scent. I love my skin tone. I love my nails. I love my liver. I love my lungs. I love my brain. I love my corns. I love my spine. I love my bones. I love my joints. I love my ligemnets. I love my larnyx. I love my neck. I love my back. I love my hairlessness. I love my free spirit. I love my freedom. O love that I love!

Times a Changin'

Wow how things can change ever so quickly. I am one for change I actually quite enjoy it, but I can only take so much at a time. I tend to think I can take more then most people however that is me gaging myself off of myself therefore having no validity. All of that to say there has been a lot of change recently.
Not just in my physical life but also in my emotional life.
My picture of God is growing and expanding in ways that are so beneficial for my spiritual health and soon my physical surroundings will be changing as well.

I am not sure if my affinity for change is a good thing or if it is a bad thing...I learned some time ago that I was addicted to change. I have to have some major change every 2 years or I think there is something wrong. It's rather strange that is so exact and most the time it has to do with a job or location change. As I have tried to analyze this personal trait I have come to the conclusion that I cause and create change in my own life for a sense of security. I know it sounds backwards but really it actually makes a lot of sense. I am looking for something I can try to control and if I can't control anything then why not move myself out of the uncontrollable environment into a different one because then at least I can try over again.

So now I am forced to look at the change that is taking place in my life right now and evaluate if this is another one of those moments.
In my time of reflection I have come to see that this change is a natural change and one that was going to take place with or with out me wanting. So I guess I am glad that I am on the upside of this change!

So what is the change you ask well here it is.
I moved to Hawaii and now I am moving back home!
Yep I am packing up and moving home. Why you ask?  Why am I leaving paradise? Of course it's for a guy but not the kinda of guy you are thinking of.
I have come to the conclusion that the guy whose lead I am following truly cares about my happiness and he wants what is best for me and what causes me to flourish.
God has really revealed that I am no longer safe or needed here. Not that I was ever needed but I was willing to be used and now that I have been used it's time for me to move on.

There have been plenty of reason to leave and even some to stay but after looking at a pro's and con's list I have come to the conclusion to just throw it out and do what seems illogical on most fronts. It even seems crazy to me but, I am not the one directing it. It's God he is showing me guiding me and helping me sift through what seems impossible to me.

There is a lot that could be said and a lot that could be done but I truly am content to leave it all where it is and move on. I have learned more then I thought I was going to coming into this situation. I have learned how to love deeper even when you are wronged, how to truly seek Gods guidance even when you so badly want to seek mans approval, I have learned that it truly doesn't matter what others think as long as I am seeking the heart of God. And I have truly started to understand how I can love myself.
It has been a really hard but amazing time.
And the biggest thing for me is that God is no longer the teacher but he's the lover of my soul. That has been detrimental to my think and understanding. He has truly open up the box that I have been putting him in and has allowed for me to see more of himself.

I was created to glorify him and when I do that he will be made known to all. It doesn't matter what I am doing or where I am doing it but all that matters and all that will ever matter is if I am glorifying him.

So now I am challenged and driven to glorify him in all that I am doing and I am not sure what that will look like and how it will all pan out but I will strive to do what needs to be done in order to make it happen where ever I end up being!


Here's to knew adventures and figuring out where I can better bring glory to his name!