Have you ever felt that feeling of doubt or uncertainty welling up inside of you to the point of consumption?
I have for the past 2 years.
“I can’t hold it back any more, I am going to let it in and allow for it to take over for a moment and see where it takes me.” That was my response to these feelings a few weeks ago and I don’t think I could ever clearly explain how it has changed me but it truly has had one of the biggest impacts on who I am that I have ever experienced in my 28 years of life.
I have always questioned where home was and if I would ever find it. Hearing those around me say “home is where the heart is” “I am finally home” “it's always great to go home” never resounded with me. Don’t get me wrong I longed for it to but, there was a piece of me missing, or so that is what I thought.
I think I have come to find out that it was something entirely different. I needed to understand my meaning or my purpose in this life and then I would feel at home.
Recently I heard Irwin McManus say something that truly moved me and helped me finalize all that was going on inside of me for the past two years. He said “bring meaning, tell stories, and create beauty” that hit as though I had never been touched before. I know it seems so simple yet there is such a deep and profound truth to it, I can’t help but strive to live out my meaning and seek to be all that I was created to be.
Embracing all I was made for is going to be an incredible journey. But I stand confident knowing that part of who I am and who I will always be is a justice fighter. I will strive to be the voice of those unheard and the hands for those who can’t fight. I will stand in the gap and strive to make a better place for those who have no voice.
I know that this is part of my meaning/purpose in life and I will not lose sight of it because it makes me feel at home in my heart.
Knowing your meaning allows you a source of freedom that can not be replaced by any relationship, position, possession, or form of status. It gives you the ability to stand confident and know who you are and who you are not.
There is something to say about a person who truly owns their meaning allowing them to have stories so they can share them with others. When people hear stories it provokes a response whether the response be good or bad form the story tellers perspective or not it warrants a response.
I think we need to strive to see and seek out the stories in our lives more often and allow others the privilege of hearing them.
So I have created this blog. I hope you are drawn into engage with what I share about life and I hope it cases you to dream bigger, move with purpose, and love deeper.
